The Silence

I'm trying to sleep but
my eyes wouldn't allow me to close
the pain on my neck
the spinning fan and the sound of deep silence
put me in great confuse
What am I going to do?

I want to shut my brain but
my heart beats even more
urging me to sit and think
about nothing
Can anybody tell me what is going on?

I am feeling weird
I don't feel anything but guilty
guilty for nothing
worrying about something I don't really know
I am going crazy?

Staring at the wall
I see only plain colour
just like the colour of my life
plain and dull
I hear silence everywhere
it makes me wanting to cry
but I'm just tear-less

I am at point blank

The light is still on
at 4 a.m
and I'm still awake
to nothing
nothing at all
just to witness the silence

The silence.
It's killing me.